i'm so afraid

i'm so afraid because someone said me in her blog last time..
i'm so afraid because something was deleted..
i'm so afraid because someone could ask people to beat me up..
lastly, i regretted the hell of helping you in the past.
when the person hates you and say bad things about you, i'll always help you.
i will defend for you and stop any unwanted troubles.
but i think it's no point to defend you anymore since you are so strong now.
with new "friends".
you should know who you are.
i don't mind clarifying with you whether you are the one.
just come up straight to me and ask me.
i will just say yes or no truthfully.
and nope, it's not from my class.

anyway after school went to find wilson.
slacked and talk cock and we went down to yishun with his family.
okay.
you guys should know that i always hang out with his family members.
so wilson, his mother and me was talking about the future.
to have kids and all.
alright i want to marry my wife at 20 years old.
and i want to have my own kids by 22 years old.
and if i'm filthy rich, i want to have a dozen of kids.
because they are so cute.
plus with my genes, oh my god la.
they will become the cutest babies on earth. =x
you know why i want to have my kids so early?
because i do not want to have a huge age gap between us.
otherwise, it would be hard for us to communicate.
if i had a dozen of kids, i will bring all down to my temple to learn things.
hahahahaahaha.
good what.

anyway there's physics test tomorrow. :(
and i've not started studying yet.
i think i will fail badly for this test as i'm not at the least prepared for it.

and i think i'm going to change away my navigation blogskin.
somehow i miss a lot of people.
sandy, serena, majidah, edmund and many more.
especially those who was once close to me but not anymore.
but of course, excluding that slut.
_l_

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i'm thinking of posting a interesting topic for my blog.
but i do not know what to post.
give comments, thank you.

i feel that i've not studied well enough to pass my "n" level.
i want to do well in my a-maths.
because i do not want to disappoint my tutor.

i feel like i'm only left with two best friends.
kenny and wilson.
they rocks hard-time man!

new blogskin

alright, the first time this year i'm using a click blogskin.
i know there will be people saying that my blogskin is uglier then the past.
i don't give a damn to those people la.

it's not done yet.
there will be more exciting things coming up in my Miscellaneous.
shall update tomorrow.
i'm damn sleepy now.

Gemini Horoscope For The Day

You’re likely to be in quite a vague mood today, which could make it difficult for you to keep focused on the regular demands of the day. However, if work or school allows then turn your attention to something that demands a creative or artistic flair; you’ll be surprised at just how much this grounds you again!

i don't think that i'm motivated?

we played vocabulary ninja in the hall.
topic was food court.
all we have to do was to write as many words you can think of that relates to food court.


after doing, know what most of my group members did?
they lye down on the ground.
see mingxiong at the end of the photo? =x
of course i'm not like them.
so i took photos.
but not taking photos of myself of course (for goodness sake, my hair is terribly ugly now.)


this was the abcdefg we designed.
we must design something which will not break the egg no matter how high we throw it down.
of course with the materials given by them.
but my group lost still.
:(


they were preparing to throw those abcdefg down.


cool right?


to my horror, i saw two nerds in the lecture room..
so i took their photos down.
isn't it cool?
cute right?

i'm still not in the right mood of doing things.
everything are controlled by your mind.
with strong willpower, you will get what you want.
so i must tell myself to stop doing silly things again.
i don't want to get sad over and over again.
it's tiring.


last but not least, two nerds are willing to be my promoter.
:)
happy zk and sl?

hi guys.

i want to have someone who can be there for me.
i want to have someone who can have time for me.

i'm sorry.

come back for proper post tomorrow.

damn it la - edited

today's motivational camp was "fun".
with the trainer talking "rap".
he speaks very fast.
he also taught us how to memorize things.
what i love most is kendo.

*edited*
i'm feeling very frustrated now.
i can't even go out late now during school days?
my grandmother kept on rushing me to go home as early as possible.
but i know i can't blame her.
i must blame it on myself.
because if i hang out late, i will be too lazy the next day to go to school.
so i will skipped school. =x
i know that she cares a lot for me.
really, i can tell that she dotes on me the most among her grandchildren.
even i am her daughter child and not her son child, she still treats me better.
but, i just don't like to be controlled like a kid.
:(

i hate waiting too.
was waiting for a temple to start trancing.
which was supposed to be tranced by 8pm.
it dragged til 9.10pm la.
my time is damn precious la.
and after i reached home, i wanted to bathe.
but my auntie was bathing.
and now i am blogging.
and i will miss my 10pm channel u show if i bathe now.
aiya, knn la cb.
i just bloody hate today.

damn it

after bathing and preparing, trisha msged me.
she told me that she had something on.
:(
i got "put aeroplane" by her sial.
so i went to wilson's house and slack.
and i'm typing this random post at his computer.

can you type faster then me?

66 words

Speedtest

sorry guys for the stupid post yesterday.

as i said, i changed a new hairstyle.
after i got into wilson dad's car, we headed off to get some finger food.
ate some food on the way to malaysia.
i slept during the journey again because it takes 2 freaking hours to reach the place where we wanted to go.


after purchasing some god things, we headed off to some department shops.
wilson wanted to get his photo frame but can't find.
anyone has any place which sells cheap photo frames?
please leave a tag in my blog.
they got down to buy things while me and his younger sister stayed in the car.
because it was raining, i was lazy to get down.
i do not like my feet to be soaked in dirty water.
so i sang in the car and guess what.
his sister said that i sang badly to her dad and mum.
hello, i sing better then her screeching. -.-
sometimes, her sister is really very irritating and lame that makes me want to jump off the tallest building in the world and die.


we headed over to his dad's friend house.
the house there are all bungalows.
because these houses are very cheap.
it's even cheaper then those that we are living in now.
so do not think that malaysian's are rich.
the housing prices are just so low.


wilson and i talked about some plans in the future.
to share money and buy terrace or bungalows in Singapore when we earned enough money.
then my wife and i will share a room while his wife and him will share a room.
so that when our kids are born, they can play together.
then they can be childhood buddies.
then we will hire a maid.
after that we will buy a dog.
and build a basement one in our house for temple use.
but i do not think that this will come true.
because i am not working hard enough!


this uncle finally found this place to plant a tree.
i forgotten what tree he wanted to plant.


he bought super super old soil to plant it.
it has much nutrients.
see, that's how good he is at planting.


to prove that i'm in malaysia, i took these photos.
i know i am lame.


i love my new hairstyle.
but i am not going to style it if i am in school.
because for what fuck to style hair in school?
LOL.
only idiots who do not want more sleeping time will wake up early just to style their hair.


went to eat ben and jerry with him on saturday.
i love the chunky chocolates!
:)

okay, that's all for my trip to malaysia post.

well, i did not attend school today as i was feeling tired.
i need time to recover my sleep.
so i decided to sleep at home.
and this will be the last time i will be skipping school.
because my whole family nagged at me non-stop like remix!?

anyway, i will be meeting trisha buddy for movie later.
bye!
come back for updates! :P

sorry for the super late update.

after my tuition on friday, wilson mum called and asked me to go to malaysia.
which was so sudden.
so rushed down and meet him.
we went around malaysia until 10pm?
damn it la.
i missed my 10pm channel u show.
stayed at his house.

saturday, went to eat ben & jerry at cathay.
then nachos.

sunday, after templ-ing.
slacked and came home.

i am not in the mood for proper post.
why am i feeling this way?
please don't.

anyway, come back for pictures.

...

i went to malaysia unexpectedly.
find out more tomorrow..

I LOVE NUFFNANG

i got a shock when i saw that i had earned $1.
i know that it's little.
but i am very happy.
i will only get paid when i earned $50.
:(
i need more visitors to view my blog so that advertisers will put advertisements on my blog.
but, my visitors are getting lesser and lesser.
please come to my blog everyday and help me advertise k?
i wish that i could be like xiaxue, jayden and benjamin.
just earn money by blogging.
ain't it cool?


i still love my layer hair.
because i look so toot now.
well, they didn't get suspended today.
i regretted cutting my own fringe yesterday night.
because the salons were closed and my auntie does not want me to have records.
so i went to cut my fringe shorter.
until it cannot even touch my pathetic eyebrows.
never mind, what's done its done.

my a-maths tutor came today.
he's very funny.
hahaha.
for my homework, he wrote in chinese question number 1,2,3.
i believes that under his teaching, i will improve on my a-maths.
he's really a good tutor.
he gives me homework and tests.
:(
very sad.
but this will help me in improving la.
he's handsome, any girls want him?
lol.
cya!

i love nuffnang!

emo-ing is fun.

this photo was taken like sunday la.
:(
i'm so sad.
anyway, these few days mr aw keep on pon-tan. =x
missed quite a lot of maths lesson.
which is very risky because of the upcoming "n" & "o" level maths.


the relief teacher who took over mr aw was very good.
he never like catch us using phone in class.
so i took my slope hair and nerd uniform photo.
my hair is so ugly now right?!


so we were having free periods when relief teacher was here.
so just talk and play and sleep and take photos.
actually want to take more photos.
but i seriously hate my fucking hair.


after choir today, i saw a big eagle on the sky.
very huge and cool. :)
fly everywhere he likes.
i want to be a eagle in my next life please.
because i will have no troubles and just fly around the sky where i do not have to care about anyone feelings.


so we were playing murderer in class everytime.
it's so fun la.
god-damn-it.
after school, it was raining like no one's business.
cause our school spiral staircase to be flooded with water.
i rushed to the 119 bus.
for like 3 seconds? and my whole body was real wet.
alighted at the next stop and guess what.
even the bus-stop was flooded with water.
all of our shoes got soaked in the disgusting water.
and some ccb people kept on playing the ground water like stupid kids.
after i reached home, i bathe and washed my shoes immediately.
because it's so damn smelly.
after that i baked cookies!
for liuyun and hweepeng only.
too bad to the rest.

i love emo-ing.
it's fun.
because you will get to reflect on the wrong things which you had done.
i love emo-ing more than anything else.
it makes you sad and realize something.
something which you didn't realize earlier on.
i regretted so much so much for this, really.
perhaps, promises are really seriously truly meant to be broken.

:(

I DAMN HATE MY SLOPE!

i'm so sad

alright, met esther at rivervale plaza at 5.30pm.
accompanied her to eat her KFC.
after that we took bus down to my house and have my dinner.
and the sad thing is...
...
...
...
...
i cut my hair slope already!
like so damn ugly. :(
it's really very ugly.
alright, i need time to accept the fact that i've a slope hairstyle now.
and god damn the school for making me cut slope.
if i still got suspended from school tomorrow, i really don't know what to do le.
because my hair is damn short liao la.
even my fringe now does not touched my eyebrowns. :(
awwwwww...

it was a red and white day

i went to somewhere around 3 plus.
bought ice-cream to eat.
this uncle is very friendly and he told me where is the bus that i actually wanted to take.


so i got my wonderful files.
one at $5.90 and the other one at $6.90.
spent so much right?
i'll have to cut down on that.


so i took many photos of myself because i'll be changing my hairstyle tmr.
sian la.
my mum is watching the korean show again.
the music is making me emo.


went out with my cousin just now la.
but she prefers to have her face censored.


my attempt to act cute.
but i don't think i pass?
lol.

so after that went to meet gilbert.
when we are supposed to meet at 2pm.
then changed to 4.30pm.
and we actually get to meet at 5.30pm. -.-
because he's late.
went to kfc to eat first.
he wanted to go to ikea for round candles.
but i told him that watson's has it.
so he went there to get it.
anyway i got my earpiece thing.
don't know how to explain.
i think i'm changing computer soon.
hahahaha!
but i'll have to pay my auntie $15 weekly.
because it's actually the internet free computer.
hahaha!
sian.
good night viewers. :)
come everyday okay?

cj7 -edited

i'm going to meet gilbert kor 2pm.
will be going to tampanies ikea.

i'm in a happy mood today.
don't know why.
but, it's better then emoing right?
lol.

i'm going to wear my wow clothes today.
alright, come back for updates. :D

edited-
alright, my stupid kor wants to meet me at 4.30pm instead.
yawn~
omg la, i still havent finish my homework.
meaning i haven't even started doing it yet!
and i'm going to cut my stupid hair tmr.
guess i'm going to cut slope ba.
but i will take the reference book from the salon to see which hairstyle is special.
:D
stupid act-branded school people la.
still need to cut like the goldfish mouth hairstyle like that. x=
and i just watched cj7!
omg.
i know that i'm very slow.
it's so touching.
made me cry alittle la.
hello, nowadays movie ain't that touching already.
i hardly cried for any movies alright?
love you people.
bye.
i need more visitors please. :D

:D

this is my gandi loyd. cute right? :P

i so feel like meeting all of my friends

cynthia, serena, wilson, liuyun, pearlyn, esther, lilian, clarabelle, ryu, gilbert and miss wong!

...

i'm not going to like cancel any outings next time for you.
when there's people asking me out on the day you wanted to meet me.
i declined it.
but you just couldn't.

omg!

it looks too crazy.
what the hell is people swimming at the top of the mountain.
what if the water suddenly rush down?
they will all fly down man.


he really got the balls to do it.
i bet many of you aren't that daring including me. =x


this one even more power.
jumping up.
what if he accidentally lands too far? rofl.

visitors please come.
i'm getting lesser visitors :(

the many becauses

because i'm so stressed up.
because i 'm the wrong one.
because i've to keep it in me.
because i've to force out a smile.
because it's all my fault.
because i don't treasure people well enough.
because i don't have much time left.
because i don't treat the people around me nice enough.
because i don't like to be alone.
because i've given you too much stress.
because i can't take it anymore.
because nothing is forever.
because promises are meant to be broken.
and because you will be the last one.

don't ask me what i'm posting.
i've no idea.

1-2-3. D:

i'm getting emo already.
all because of my mummy.
she did not went out yesterday.
so she watched Korean dvds in my room.
seriously, Korean shows are very touching.
especially the songs.
and today, i don't think she's going anywhere anytime.
so i'm getting emo.
she's watching Korean dvds again!
god-i-hate-this!

the stupid rain is making me emo too.
how does the rain in Singapore keep raining non-stop like remix?
like hello, it's even worst then December.
see.
i'm getting emo already.
i don't feel like talking to anyone today.
good job, walter.
you didn't bring physics and chemistry notes back.
so don't think about doing your holiday homework.
and i don't have the motivation to do my homework!
especially my stupid damn thing coursework.
i'm still stuck in research.

why must i suffer all this alone?

emo emo emo

I’m the one to blame
Trying to explain
But I would cause myself the truth

Your heart is occupied….

Time was never on my side
I can sense the chemistry
when you standing close to me
I feel like a ship lost at sea

It’s getting harder to ignore
Not like anything before
I know it’s crazy
But I want more

I wish I could be close to you
Feel your every move
Never meant to feel this way
Maybe you would come around one day

Heaven knows I wanted it so much

i really don't know what to do.

went to school for choir.
mrliew was not here so misslim took over.
after choir, i went for chinese drama.
busy guy uh?
yeap..
after chinese drama and i'm home with a wet hair. -.-
stupid rain.

i'm crazy over xzxzxz.
but i know i can't.
yawn.
blog more interesting stuffs tonight k? :D

oh my god.

i'd just been selected to be in the front page of a magazine coming out in Singapore.
look at it!
remember to buy it when it comes out. =x
it can be purchased at http://www.magmypic.com/
okay. it's just entertainment.

like fucking idiot?

some people are just so pcb.
dare to say people but don't dare to admit.
and think that no one knows who she is when she tagged herself as unknown.
come on la.
get a life man.
being so lame just makes you looks even lower in my mind when you are the lowest already.
seriously, please don't act friendly or whatever alright?
nobody knows who i'm referring to except sis and mrs nat ho. :D
don't tell others ah sis and ho!
fucking pcb.

bad attitude at hougang mall ajisen ramen

met sharon yesterday night as i was really hungry.
so i bluffed her that i miss her.
and she came down to accompany me.
we went up to ajisen ramen to have my dinner.
as she had eaten her full, she ordered only a side dish.
i ordered one crayfish ramen with the prawn thing and ice lemon tea.
when i placed order, i told the waitor that i wanted a cold ice lemon tea.
i had mistaken ice lemon tea for green tea.
because it's stated hot/cold green tea.
so told him that i wanted a cold ice lemon tea.
guess what did he replied?
he replied, "Ajisen Ramen only serves cold ice lemon tea, so yah."
then i look at him and give him a lame face, "Orh."
like for what he tell me that la.
purposely wanted to make me embarrassed?


sharon was so busy that she answered two phone calls while waiting for food.


this was the crayfish ramen that i ate.
i had some difficulty taking out the meat from the shell of the crayfish.
it was tiring to take out the meat.
took me for about 5 mins. -.-


sharon ordered this as side dish.
it's so common nowadays to eat this type of chicken.
so i ordered prawn as my side dish.
and i treated her.


i guess i had a nice hair day yesterday?
i clipped up my hair everyday at home from sunday.
because the pimples on my forehead is getting worse.


actually her fringe was not that long.
but she insisted that i should help her extend her hair through photoshop before posting it out.
fine, i extended her hair free of charge. =x


i forgotten when was this photo taken.
it was a chinese drama outing.

after eating we went up to "The Bluez" to get my ear-sticks as i'm running out of them!!
got her bread after that.
we walked around NTUC for awhile.
headed off to hougang central to get my psp screen protector for $10.
went to check for the price for my phone now.
they can only buy my second hand phone for $265!
hello, i bought it at $600+ you know?
they said that the price now has dropped to $500+.
and they must divide the price into 2.
so, whatever.
they will get back to me today as they promised me to give me the best price.
visitors for yesterday was 60+.
continue coming alright?
something is wrong with my blogger.
i can't upload 5 photos at a shot.
must upload one by one already. :(

damn it!

i'm going to change a new phone soon!
and of course, by myself again.
i'm going to sell away the lousy phone and buy a new music phone.
i'm going to suffer a loss eventually.
because i got my lousy phone at $630++ ?
like what the fuck wasting money right?
still deciding which phone to buy.
any suggestion guys?

anyway i did up a choir blog on saturday.
go to www.northvistachoir.blogspot.com to have a look at it.

hohoho. sunday!

hey guys.
i promise to blog every single day okay?
so remember to look out for my post before it's gone.
you know, one post appears only.
i'm really glad for the number of visitors yesterday.
it's 47.
it's really picking up.


he's Mas Alamak Kastari which everyone will know by now.
very good uh, so famous.
want to bomb his own country. -.-
look at his face.
walan eh, deserves a punch man.
i saw this on esther's blog.
one of the famous blogger in singapore.


yah, he may disguised himself in one of these forms.
pirate, chiobu, puahchukang, saddam hussein and me!
spot me inside with the black spectacles. :D
one guy in my class looks like the first guy in the last row.
if you happen to spot him anywhere, call the police!
because it's kind of irritating to see him everywhere.
at my block, bus and mrt.
with that qianbian look on his face.

alright, visitors continue supporting me ok?
i'll post more interesting stuffs rather than my daily life.
i'm going over to my temple later on.
alright, i've decided to put nuffnang ad.

there's no love in love letters.
but miss.

its a sunny yellow banana day!

first met * at hougang plaza to do some things.
after that headed off to bugis to shop for my stuffs!
i bought one red polo tee and one black polo tee with one black short pants! :D
it has been super long since i went bugis with * already.

after that, we headed over to *.
ate the $5 fried rice there.
omg la! it was so much!
like a mountain.
in the end, we still left a little bit la.

anyway i've a new gan di today. :D
his name is lloydd.
cute la he. lol
sec one choir junior.
and i've downloaded djmax into my psp!
wtf la, so fun to play!

it's enough

this year is definitely not a fun year for me.
many weird things happened.
it's really very stressed to be in secondary four.
time passes really really fast.
the scariest thing now is "n" level which is just a few months away.
it's no longer a few years away.

i remembered that 2005 - 2007 march holidays were relaxing.
not as stressful as this year.
there are many stuffs for me to complete by school reopens.
piles of homework like "n" level coursework.
the whole book of chinese "n" level book.
and many other more..
what's worst is, you have to go back to school for CCAs.
i've to go back like twice, 12Mar&14Mar?
there are many things for me to catch up.
especially my mathematics.
it's really getting bad.
there's nothing to motivate me to study anymore.
i didn't even study for any maths test now.
hence, i hired a a-maths tutor.
its on every thursday?

my memory is also getting from bad to worse.
the short-term-memory is killing me!
i had really forgotten many stuffs that my friends told me.
even my tuition timing, i've forgotten.
how bad can it goes?
it's time to change.
it's time to get ready for battle.
i've to pull up my socks and start studying.

one * particularly is trying to act gangster?
which * does not even have the 1%?
* is pretending to be fierce.
trying to act because someone is not around anymore?
come on la, wake up your idea.
we're not afraid of you la.
if you really have the guts, bring it on.
i've my best jie to help me right, opera queen? :D
and of course many more la. -.-
i think this is the longest post i've ever made in this year.

i don't like n.u.s.
they have so many projects that makes me feel so angry about it.

i'm sick for 2 days!

went to school this morning despite me being so asfnjas already.
studied for one period which is physics.
then went to report sick.
went home and take my medicine for running nose.
slept and woke up.
eat again, then sleep.
like pig like that!
no!!
i don't want to become sis! x=

i
am
feeling
so
sick
because
of
my
ta ma de
cough
-.-

fucking copycat

please la some copycat.
don't copy my sis please.
have some creativity will you?
dare to say her then put permission?
what the humji kia are you.
get a life man.

anyway, i'm sick today.
sorethroat, cough and running nose.
just wake up after eating medicine.
feel so light now after the medicine.
like going faint that feeling, but not fainting.
lol.

i don't want to lose anyone now.

:D

i closed down my blog and many people asked me to invite them.
so, my blog is opened! :D